january 24

  

Back in action a full 2 years later! Obviously much has changed since my last posts.. moved 3 times with my boyfriend Jobe.

There's us a year and a half or so ago...should really get some updated pics! I now, and have been for a few years, am working at the Berryvale health food store cafe. Absolutely loving it. Sooo much. But I am getting inspired to want to go to school and do something else as a grown woman of course... Here's my beautiful store..

...well, that's just the dining room. But my co-workers and managers have really become my second family. I've been getting into some trouble there however, so I really need to be earning some get out of jail free cards before summer. I think a lot of this will attribute to my effort to become sober (ish) from both drugs and alcohol. For the last year or so I have been falling into the bottomless pit of alcoholism and drug addiction and it's damn near ruined every relationship I have. I am on day 4 of not drinking, which honestly feels incredible!! I can't wait to be able to feel like I have control over when and how much I drink, rather than the other way around. As far as the drugs go, well... "Dirty White Girls" from the new Dead Prez album (Information Age) could sum it up pretty well! Those kinds of drugs really only end up making me feel dirty and guilty when I do them anyway, which is no bueno. Besides I can't control myself around them, usually taking at least 2x as much as my friends when they're around haha. I will stick with ganja and mushrooms, thanks! I am so excited for this year. It started off on kind of a bad note, but I'm so determined to make it the best yet. Really, couldn't be worse than 2012!! I feel very clear and inspired and ready to tackle everything headfirst. I want to use the internet more as well for its resources that I have really been neglecting.

So! Beyond trying to lead a moderately more sober life (which I think will really help contribute to any endeavors I pursue in the future), I want to have more energy, which will in turn help me to do all of the things I previously had too much stress to do. No more stress! No more fatigue! No more depression! Bring on the energy, the love, the passion, the activity, the ability to accept life and relax and deal with the things life throws at me!! I'm ready!!!