january 27

Well.. my sick-cation is almost over. It's been nice to just lay around on the couch watching Lost and drinking tea this last week. Worth a week's worth of lost pay and an intolerable migraine? .... I think so :-)

I never get to be lazy. I almost feel as though the lack of total relaxation that I allow myself is attributing to how tired and depressed I'd been feeling. Kinda strange... if I don't let myself be lazy on purpose then I end up being lazy anyway... but not feeling good about it. Lesson learned. I need to put my health first, no two ways about it. This is my last day of doing nothing-ness. I plan on being as zen and centered and relaxed as possible today. Simple tasks that need to be done to prepare myself for the work week. Plenty of reading and writing and resting. I guess I just need to listen to my body more frequently and prioritize better. Make choices for myself that I know will make me feel good in the long run. Not immediate satisfaction, like getting drunk in the middle of the day or skipping breakfast so I can smoke cigarettes. Spending tons of money on makeup to cover up how tired I look because I've been up all night high or crying because I'm disappointed with myself. I'm over it! This week of forcing myself to relax has given me so much clarity into what I have been doing wrong. I'm so so so so so excited to get back to work tomorrow and exercise my new life-skill set. Bring it on :-)

On a different note... In a rush of excitement I'd felt over the approaching of summertime, I wrote down all the things I want to do/be over those warm beautiful months. One of my goals was to take more pictures! But I remembered that I had misplaced the charger for my neat little Coolpix S3000 (in purple, booyah!). After doing a small amount of research on Amazon, found the best replacement choice, and hey! only $6.99. I hate online shopping... $8.09 for shipping only! ASKJSDKJBVDBVDIUHTJKE;LDFOIER!!!!!!!!! I guess they've got their market. I bought it anyway. Hmph.

Will try to continue to write, at least a couple times a week, when I'm back in work. It's therapeutic :-)